Thursday, March 21, 2019

24 from Mason, OH

I have 3 jobs (hate that I have to) I work at the airforce base in Ohio as a cartographer (love the profession, hate the work atmosphere) my 2nd job is at a pizza place as a shift manager and my 3rd job is as a seasonal snow plow driver (which I love. I have a healthy obsession with snow plows 😊)

Some people would be surprised to know that I can play every common instrument except the flute (due to not being able to make the ombasure) however because of pattern recognition I know the finger pattern is the same as the tenor saxophone which I do know how to play. I can tell the make/model of almost any vehicle just by looking at it and not seeing the logos. I can tell you where most state routes, interstates and U.S. routes in Ohio lead to. My goal is to visit all 88 counties of the state and so far I've been to 48.

My biggest accomplishment would be winning 1st place for my undergraduate research at a geography conference back in October. The topic is poverty in Appalachia.

I personally want more love and peace in the world.

I wish that those who were not autistic knew about autism is that just because I'm not looking at you doesn't mean I'm not listening.

I want to tell everyone on the spectrum that their interest are all important no matter what an NT may say.

most helpful resource for me is probably having a psychologist to visit weekly but sadly that is coming to an end as I am now "too old"

Funny story about me: Up until recently, Ohio used an number system which organized counties alphabetically. I took the time to memorize those numbers as I found it interesting because counties is one of my interest. Anyways, my first day on base I go to get in my co-workers car. I ask him, "What part of Butler county are you from?" The puzzled and concerned look on his face was priceless! I had just met this guy and he had not told me where he is from so he probably thought I was a stalker haha. I then explained to him how the 09 on his license plate meant it was from butler county and he then said "wow when they said you were the guy here on the direct hire authority program I didnt believe it, but I sure as hell do now"

. . Signs/symptoms that indicated I was autistic: Interestingly enough, someone I was interested in dating at the time had told me how much I remind her of a younger brother who is on the spectrum. She said the stuff about counties, roads and car identification. For me personally I typed depression, anxiety and anger into Google and somehow found a link to one of those online test. I took about 6 from different sources to be sure and they all scored in a similar range and suggested I seek professional diagnosis. It was a that moment I realized.
How I felt when i first received my diagnosis: I felt that the 2 years I spent trying to get my diagnosis finally paid off. I experienced every emotion possible at one time, it was bitter sweet though because I then realized my family wouldn't be supportive with such a late diagnosis.
I now think it is a good thing. I always used to think I was just weird and that was it. However, with an explanation for many of my "strange" behaviors I feel more comfortable with myself to a degree.

Yes, not having the diagnosis earlier almost ruined my life. I almost didnt get out of grade school due to poor grades. My teachers always told my parents that I'm very smart but my grades just don't show it. So that was taken as me just being lazy. When I was in elementary school I almost got expelled trying to do anything I could to fit in with the other kids. I was very gullible and would basically do anything I was told to (I'm sure you can see how this is a problem). Due to how I was raised it made me into a very quiet and introverted person, so when I tell people I'm on the spectrum they don't believe me because of how quiet I can be sometimes. In 2017 I almost didnt make it out of that year as I had a lot of issues with depression partially caused by how difficult I realized my diagnosis would be and that my family wouldn't support me. Along with some other stuff from my childhood. Since I was raised like I wasn't on the spectrum it did cause a decent amount of trauma, but led me to being able to adapt fairly well to "society norms" most of the time. This is also why I have issues with people not believing me.

As someone with hemophilia (a bleeding disorder) and autism it makes for some truly terrible days sometimes. The amount of pain I can go through that isn't visible to outsiders is ridiculous. Most of my meltdowns tend to happen when I'm in a lot of pain from a bleed (internal bleeding) and I assume that's a sensory thing. What has really helped me get through the bad days is writing my own music, listening to music, watching videos about cars, watching funny videos and looking up information about different counties and maps of Ohio

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