Sunday, April 7, 2019

30, California

My biggest accomplishment thus far is
Overcoming anxiety and mastering fear in a way I never thought possible. Also finding the love of my wife I was convinced I didn’t deserve for many years. Finding my passion to create the LBRY of Alexandria project is great too (

I wish those who are not autistic were made aware
There is a huge unspoken problem with the imbalance between humanity getting better at diagnosing autism in children and the assumption that there aren’t just as many adults that made it through childhood without getting diagnosed.This causes more fear than hope for an entire generation of children and parents right now. NOT just the parents of children with autism but fear in parents that don’t understand autism and live in constant fear of the autism “epidemic” that is just medicine getting better at realizing how many humans have it without addressing the problem of how hard it is to get diagnosed as an adult or the fact that most autistic adults don’t benefit from getting diagnosed like a child does.

We need to share more messages to bring hope to all humans confused by the mostly hidden reality that most adults with autism have it just as figured out as the rest of adults. We just need more messages of hope instead of the abundance of fear mongering going on right now regarding autism.

Resources that benefited me were Heuristically Mental Health practice. Positive Mental Health practice. Self-directed learning. Mentors. But mostly practicing asking better questions that provide self-evident results and focusing on positive choices.

I want those who are also autistic to know There is no one right way to be yourself. You can be ever changing or a constant. We live in a world that doesn’t value being different… yet. Explore your positivity and you will probably change the world, or change your world, both are of equal value.

On my journey I was misdiagnosed as ADD, then ADHD, then OCD, then Bipolar and switched between Bipolar type 1 & 2 diagnosis half a dozen times through teenage years and adulthood with a major anxiety order dropped in during adolescent years. I was considered a rapid cycler in a way that broke all bipolar measurements.

But earlier last year I started researching the autistic mind for my non-profit. In my efforts to share the discoveries we made with our communication protocol to promote mentally healthy and honest communication online and offline, most of the doctors I shared these discoveries with ranging from psychologists, speech therapists, etc all asked what my motivation for researching autistic minds was. It was through this curiosity that I learned they assumed I had autism. It had honestly never occurred to me WHY I was understanding and as empathetic to how the autistic mind worked. After trying to find someone to diagnose me and having conversations with therapists that had brought this to my attention I learned it would be extremely difficult to obtain an official diagnosis, especially if there was no direct help from treatment that I could receive as a result of a diagnosis. So while I can’t prove that I have a diagnosis in a way that I realize is satisfactory to others like me… this is my reality.

Only applying things I had learned through my psychologists and reading on more eastern holistic teachings of the human mind did any of my mental health practice in my daily life start to provide consistent positive results. I went from being inconsistently okay at mental health and equally as destructive to my own life when things weren’t “working” to turning my life and mental health around in a way that seemed unbelievable even to me.

I wouldn’t say that my life changed because of my awareness of my autism… but it made more sense than trusting assumptions I had of my brain based on diagnosis’ that was made in a time where we knew close to nothing of autism compared to now.

I have more confidence over my thoughts, ideas, and ability to master my own body, mind, and emotions. I never thought I would have the stability and ability I do now. But more importantly, I have faith in myself to actually do something for the world to give others the same hope I finally found

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