Thursday, April 11, 2019

i’m lex, 41 from essex, UK.. i started working for Michelin in June 2000 (the 5th to be precise.. a Monday).. 

after a short spell out of work, i went to an interview in the height of summer and i had to walk.. a 40 minute journey, so, as i was unemployed and it was hot, a suit was out of the question.. i turned up in a white t shirt, jeans and trainers.. i got the job! this part of my life is important because i believe that, what i was wearing made me comfortable enough to behave like me and gave me more confidence which resulted in my employment.. roll on a couple years..

february 2019, i’m still at Michelin, i’m my own boss (to an extent).. i have staff, and i have nearly 20 years experience and at 41 years old, my boss has just offered to pay for me to do a degree (37k of tuition) to keep me at the company.. i’m touched, flattered, and i’m absolutely gonna do it..

being (i’m my head) neurotypical for most my life, i wish that people knew that ASD is not a black or white scenario.. i was speaking to my mum earlier and i told her what my imagination of the spectrum is, opposed to the rainbow or slide rule.. to me, right.. i need you to imagine now.. 3D imagery if you can. Your in an empty field, you look up, and you are covered by a seethrough dome, this dome is ALL of the spectrum, you are influenced by a patch of colour on that dome.. the size, shape and position of that patch is completely unique to you, yet it IS you on the spectrum as a dot or half the dome coloured in.. you see, we are all so different, in our own ways, some of us over lap, some we miss by huge distances, but, we are ALL owners of a piece of that dome.. neurotypicals don’t have this familial connection, they all want to be unique yet it turns out they’re all just sheep.

i have only recently (in the last few years) learned of and accepted my autism.. i always knew i was weird’ and ‘different’ but only after my nephew was diagnosed did my mum (an NLP practitioner and neuro psychologist) notice the the text she was reading on my sisters behalf actually related to not just my nephew, but myself, my mum and sister too. as it turns out, my uncle (mums brother) and great uncle (nans brother) are also autistic.. seems we have a prolific gene in our family.. a good one though, let me just add that..

i have no advice per se but i would like to say this to anyone reading who is on the spectrum.. be fucking proud of your ASD, we are unique, we are next gen evolution.. it might take nature a few more generations to get it right but we are the future.. i truly believe that.

My mum said as a child i was taken to the doctors with suspected depression (at 2 years old) because i would run around like a nutter for a while and then at other times, regress into myself on the sofa, non verbal.. roll on a few years to school.. i was naughty, disruptive, BORED, the only 2 subjects i liked were french and science but because i liked them and got excited, i over acted and got sent out of class.. i was lucky that even after bunking off (playing truant) for most of my last 2 years at school, i still passed all my exams and finished in the top 5% of the school, if only i’d studied right?.. the point is, i didn’t need to, i wasn’t being taught anything i didn’t know and in fact on several occasions taught my teachers a few things they weren’t aware of.. what i’m saying is, no one suspected anything while i was a child, maybe adhd, but autism.. nooooo.. when i was at school autism meant rocking back and forth, non verbal and banging ur head on walls.. thank god for education ay??.. people knew i was different.. it just wasn’t attributed to anything other than having young parents with a naughty child..

now i know i am autistic, i feel a sense of calm and belonging.. my whole busy, random, naughty, noisy, confusing life actually makes sense now.. i know why i need my own space and silence.. i know why i shutdown from time to time.. i know why i don’t like being touched by anyone, or why i don’t like loud noises or surprises, am socially anxious and obsessive over routines and discipline and crap at speaking out loud.. it ALL MAKES SENSE NOW..

let me wrap up with this autistic people are some of the most gifted, influential, brightest minds on this planet.. we are the future of humanity, the gene pool that won’t war or fight, instead we’ll strive for excellence and unity.. we are the gene pool that will take this race off of this planet and into the stars because it won’t be about money, power or resources, it’ll be about humanity and preservation and life.. i am in, feet first, neck deep, and i love it..

Lex Romero (Accept Neuro Diversity)

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