Anonymous
Age 34
Anaheim, CA, US
I am a business owner that
helps people master themselves and their energy so that they can live the lives
they want, and leave the world after creating a positive impact. I absolutely adore
what I do!
People would be surprised
to know that I can’t ride a bike or perform “normal” things people do, but I am
also able to experience the vibrations. Vibrations of sound, to see other dimensions,
realms, and much more. 😉
In my opinion, the
biggest accomplishment thus far is being asked to consult on two biomed
research projects, as well as on the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental
Disorders (DSM) 4, 5, and upcoming 6.
Every day I try to change
myself into a less rigid, more loving version of myself. Whether or not I succeed
every day is arguable, but I try. Because of my energy, I do lots of energy
healing daily. With hate and ignorance as the global norm, I argue that we have
a pollution of “bad vibes” in this world…that’s a gentle understatement.
Working with mothers, I
am helping spiritually gifted children retain their natural abilities and help
these little healers come into their own, as well as the adults who pay me to
work with them.
My biomed projects are a
huge love of mine, but so is the outreach I do for non-substance addicts in nearly
100 centers around the globe. I teach local classes for victims of domestic
violence to get themselves and their lives back. I also volunteer at church
charities with my grandfather; though I’m not religious, I enjoy helping the
church help others, as long as there’s no bible-thumping involved. I enjoy
assisting at food and clothes drives, delivering food for homebound elders, and
help to heal at centers for elders, and vets.
I come from a family with
two serial killers in it so I have always felt this strange responsibility to
balance all the bad karma in the bloodline by volunteering like a fiend.
I wish neurotypicals knew
that most of your heroes are surely autistic… Jesus Christ. Leonardo DaVinci.
Marie Curie. Nikola Tesla. There’s no way in hell any of The Philosophers were
neurotypical. A vast majority of the greatest minds of any time period have
been autistic. We’re normally GENIUS smart, can sing very well, and are
excellent leaders because we don’t care much about “normal.”
Occupational therapy
helped me a ton, mostly because the team I had really knew their stuff. Thy
taught me the value of the Ego to the NT and the ways we can accidentally
bruise it, which has made socializing much easier. I was also trained in various conversation styles
and can mimic most of them well.
My advice to anyone else
on the spectrum? Do you. Yeah, some people aren’t gonna like it. That’s fine,
they’re not your people. Your people will love you just as you are, pinkie
promise!
Funny story about me… oh
my, there’s many. In my house, we’re Cuban, so we don’t really do the Santa thing
like traditional Americans. Meaning it wasn’t until first grade when we started
“Santa Claus is Coming to Town” that my world shattered.
…Wait. You’re
telling me some stranger danger old dude WATCHES ME SLEEP every night and he
stalks me while I’m awake, he sees that too, AND THEN HE BREAKS INTO THE HOUSE!?!?!?!?
My six-year-old self began bawling in fear and couldn’t speak. I was sent to
sit with the principal, Mrs. H., to be consoled. I adore Mrs. H. to this day,
she’s such a kind woman! Years later, they both told me they never thought of
Santa as creepy until the day I had a meltdown about it, which still cracks
them up.
Years later, my teacher told
me she had the hardest time ever trying not to laugh.
The next year we had
catechism class, so we had to learn to treat the Eucharist correctly. In the
Catholic mythos I was raised with, once an incantation is said by the priest, the
bread and wine become the ACTUAL body and blood of Jesus. Well…there was more crying
that cracked the adults up. Although I didn’t know what cannibalism was yet, I
refused to eat a person, ESPECIALLY JESUS. Eventually I got an honorary pass
because they never could get me to cave on the cannibalism.
Signs that indicated that
I was on the spectrum? Now that I’m older I’m like “Well, being so literal
about both Christmas and catechism was kind of a biggie…” Also, I was a little
adult as a child. By age two I was reading, by age four I was teaching myself
Latin and English, never wanted to play with kids, as I was just happy in
either intellectual conversation or a book. Very spiritually connected, I had
more unseen friends than human ones. I connected with almost no one, and I
hated talking. Still do…
My family was just like, “You
were easy, we basically just had to make sure to have books and food available
to you, and you were content.” I went deaf for almost a year and they didn’t
notice because of how little I socialized to begin with! LOL.
When I first received my diagnosis,
it felt like taking off a push-up bra after a long stint in it. SUCH A RELIEF.
Finally free to be me, let my wounds heal, finally blossom!
Today I feel: Not much
different, but I do have some guilt. I used to do walks to TACA trying to help
but now I’m like, “WTF was I thinking!?” Seriously, take anything from their
campaigns and replace it with “Judaism” or “Blackism” and see how messed up it
sounds! "Talk About Curing Judaism" ummm....I think someone did, I
believe his name was Adolf Hitler. "Talk about Curing Blackism" Well
hello, Jim Crowe! Did you bring the rope? I feel some guilt now about the
efforts I put towards helping these organizations with their research or “cures.”
Otherwise? I feel braless.
I didn’t realize I was on
the spectrum until much later in life, and I am actually a bit glad because I
had to just learn how to deal which gave me a thicker skin. It also made me
much more resourceful, and a good source for information for those trying to
understand autism.
Obstacles I have overcome:
My mental and physical health has been terrible for a good portion of my life,
thanks to intense abuse, suicidality, my relationships, and being diagnosed
with Parkinson’s Disease at age 25. The only thing that’s helped me actually get
better is all the psych, energy, biohacking knowledge I now teach.
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